getting fatter everyday.
i am not aloud to be weighted until the meeting with the doctor.
i know how much i weight, i can see it.
i’m bigger than ever and it’s really hard for me to stop cutting.
im a monster.
a big disgusting fat monster.
nothing will ever change that.
even if i could be skinny, i won’t get rid of this uglyness.
i dont want people telling me in pretty, or fat. or ugly. or beautiful.
i know what i see and thats what i believe.